You've been waking up at 3am the last couple of weeks, you haven't done this in almost a year. Just as I thought we had your sleeping going well your having trouble again. The scary thing about this is you don't come into our bedroom like other children would do if they wake up in the night. No not you, you go downstairs, turn on all the lights and search for food! Dad got up last night with you when we heard you down there, you had gotten into Breckell's birthday donuts and were enjoying an early morning snack. He brought you back upstairs and we started the long morning of helping you get back to bed. After an hour of back and forth you ended up in my bed!! This was a rare moment for me, I loved it, you don't like to hug or cuddle, but you were tired enough that I got to sleep by you last night! You didn't want me to wrap my arms around you, but you would let me lay close to you and that in it's self was wonderful. I had a hard time winding down, long after you were fast asleep I laid there thinking of you, how different the world must seem through your eyes, than through mine.
My heart ached for how lonely a world you must live in, communication is hard for you, you struggle with putting your thoughts into words, and on top of that your speech can be hard to understand. When you do fee like talking, there are times when none of us understand what you are saying. We want to understand, but you don't like to say things twice and by the third you have moved on with a new thought and we are left not knowing what you were thinking.
Oh the things you must think!
You are so smart, much smarter than we give you credit for!! You have our home figured out to a T, you know all of us and you know how to time what you are wanting. Just like yesterday when Breckell woke up on her birthday to balloons covering her floor and streamers all over the room, she also had several boxes of candies. We spend 20 minutes or so in her room talking and celebrating her spacial day, then we all went downstairs for breakfast, you came down to, but once we all busy doing our morning routine, you headed back upstairs and helped yourself to her birthday candy, you got through one box and was working on box #2 when we found you! Oh yes you are much smarter than we give you credit for! To Breckell I give her my admiration, she didn't blink an eye, after so many years of living with you these things are expected and we all went on with the morning without a bump!
I love you Malia, I adore you, Dad and I know you are a treasure above measure, and we take ilfe day by day, knowing without any doubt that someday after this life has passed we will know you and you will be able to talk with us, and we will be able to laugh about all the times you were one up on us!
With all a Mother's LOVE!
-Love Mom
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